SONA 2015

Napanood ko ang SONA. Pero hindi ngayon. Ang napanood kong SONA ay last year, pero yung kanina hindi pa, dahil may lakad ako. Pero isa lang ang alam kong siguradong mangyayari and masasabi….

“Walang nagawa”

“Palpak na administrasyon”

Bumbero, barricade, bato, at mga pulis.

Naabutan ko ang evening news kanina at natawa na lang akong napiliing interviewhin sa mga nagdedemonstrate.

Reporter: Anong masasabi mo sa SONA ni PNoy?

Interviewee: Hindi ko po alam.

Reporter: Bakit po kayo andito sa People’s SONA?

Interviewee: kase…walang sasama sa ganito nila e

Napakadaling sabihin walang nagawa ang isang tao. Palpak ang lahat ng effort o solution sa problema. Madaling sabihin na mali ang isang bagay. Walang pagbabago. Madaling magreklamo, punahin ang pagkukulang at ibigay ang buong atensyon sa mga pagkakamali.

Tama. Walang pagbabago. May nagrally sa daan, may nangbato, nanguyog at basaan ng tubig.

Tama. Palpak ang pagsigaw sa kalye ng mga problema, kapalpakan, at reklamo sa kalye. Dahil isigaw man yan oh hinde mananatiling problema yan maliban lang kung susubukan mag isip ng solusyon at yoon ang isigaw sa kalye.

Tama. Walang nagawa. Dahil sa totoo lang kahit hindi ipagsigawan ang mga problema, alam na nating lahat ito. Napagod, nagkasakitan and namaos lang ang mga taong ito. 

Ang pagbabago hindi magagawa lang ng isang tao. Paano mo aasahan ang pagbabago kung ikaw mismo hindi susubukang magbago. Bago sana sabihin na walang nagawa ang isang tao, isipin muna kung ikaw mismo may nagawa. Imbes na ipagsigawan ang problema, isisi sa isang tao at magreklamo, subukang gumawa na lang ng solusyon sa mga problema at ito ang ipagsigawan.

Hindi ako against sa pagrarally at pagpapahag ng saloobin. Karapatan ng lahat yan. Lumaya at naibalik ang demokrasya na meron tayo ngayon dahil dyan. Pero sa tingin ko, sa dami ng rally na napapanood ko at sa halos sampung taon na nagkaroon ako ng pakialam sa balita at nakikita ang mga protesta….nawalan na ako ng tiwala.

Hindi ko malaman kung anong gusto nila. Sa totoo lang, wala pang presidente na hindi nila sinabihang palpak o hindi pinagreresign.

Alam kong may pagkukulang ang presidente. May mga problemang hindi nabigyan ng atensyon. Pero hindi ibig sabihin WALANG NAGAWA at WALANG PAGBABAGO or hindi sinubukang baguhin ang sistema.

Saloobin lamang ng isang Pilipino na nais kong ipahayag dahil karapatan ko din ito.

Letters for the Past

I have this habit of writing a letter to my future self wheneve I am experiencing difficulties or hopelessness. I believe that when I read the letter  from the past it will make me appreciate the present. Makes me happy that all those difficulties or hardships was worth it.

Today, however, I want to write a letter to my past self. A letter that will never be read by my past self since I can’t send the latters back in time. Unlike the letters for the future, i could just insert it in a book, I know I will read in the future.

Hello J,

I am your future self. I read all the letters you wrote for me and I am thankful we have a strange but beautiful line of thought. I won’t spoil you things of the future because I know you knew about them as early as your time, you are just respecting the idiosyncrasies of time and fate. It’s not that you’re  afraid of the future, you just hate getting disappointed.

Anyway, internship, graduating, boad exams and even a driver’s license… You will have them all. Finally you will be a registered voter.

However, I am stuck. I have them all, but now I am stuck. I sort of lost our dreamy eyes. One by one our dreams get slapped by reality.

Keep dreaming. Strengthen your aspiration. I know you want to be so many things. A doctor, a professor, a hospital personnel, working on a laboratory abroad, travel, get fit, etc. Never lose that dreamy eyes, use it to fuel your energy. To thrive more, pursuing those dreams even if reality is against it. Don’t let self doubt slow you down and sap your aspirations.

I know I will eventually get back at my feet. And continue my pursuit. But now I just needed rest and have a nice talk with you.

…..I’m so weird.

Random Message

I cannot put into words the reason why I am writing this for you. I was re-reading “The Alchemist” one rainy afternoon at a tea shop in a mall and suddenly had the urge to message you.
I’ve read your terrible experience. Your phone, money and your other belongings were taken from you. And thankfully you were not harmed physically. It was an experience I never imagined happening to me, that is probably why I also fear it the most.

I’m going to give you the most generic form of words to show my concern and care to you.

I know you will gain more than what you had lost. Your phone and your money etc. Trust towards other people walking in the streets with you. Taking out your cam to take magnificent pictures for us to see the beauty of the Philippines or give us foodgasms with your foodporn.

I realized for some reason you were like the shepherd boy from The Alchemist simply because you were living the dream. Traveling the country. 

From a professor who smiled a lot, who got his heart broken to a million pieces, who climbed mountains, ran races and traveled to his heart’s content to make it whole again.

I used to ask, where does he get all the money? Who’s taking his photos?

But eventually you made me realize.

You can’t put a price at genuine happiness. You don’t need to be with someone to be happy.

Thank you for being the old King for this shepherd boy who’s about to set on a journey.

@roamulofied.