Unspoken Words

June 26

J : (talking about himself. Hating and pitying himself.)
Me: For the nth time, you’re not.
J: (continues badmouthing himself)
Me: Just because I like you doesn’t mean I’ll tolerate you pitying yourself!

June 27

We watched a movie together. You brought your friend. Of course I felt awkward but I tried not to. I talked to her just as I talked to you. I don’t know much. I don’t wanna look like a snob and be non-existent, letting you know I exist is the whole point of inviting you to the movies. I can’t be to chattery, I don’t wanna be an empty can or annoying. As much as  I want to talk to you, nothing interesting comes out of my mouth.

You look good. That polo shirt look good on you, like everything else.
How was your day?
Were your exams difficult? How did you manage?

Can we take a picture together?

We got ourselves comfortable in our seats….[well your seats because I got the slanted one and I have to move every few minutes throughout the movie otherwise I’ll be on the floor.] the trailers starts playing, I enjoy how you react to each one of them. The movie started playing. I enjoyed the movie as much as I enjoy taking glances at you and hearing your reaction to every funny, emotional, and thrilling scene. The movie was over. And again I was speechless. My legs were sore from working out so I stood up like an old man but again I said to myself “I invited someone I like to watch a movie and he came. I spent time with him.”

I wanted to spend more time with you. Invite you over for dinner but you had things to do, you said. On our way to the taxi bay, for the first time in my life I will line up there instead of taking a cab along their route before it reached the mall.I line up there, because you also lined up. Then one by one your friends, started showing up. I got the chance to meet them. And they took you away, with the new GOT episode and invited you over for dinner. You were thinking about it untile it was my turn to ride a cab.

What are your plans tonight? Would you like to have dinner with me?
You like GOT that much? Who’s your favorite character?
So this is your friend. Oh hi (your friend)
Can I join you guys for dinner?

As the cab, left I sighed. I felt happy but broken. I can’t help but smile despite feeling a heavy heart.

I like you. I hope there’s a next time.



Movies in Heaven

Life after death is a common belief shared by Christians. However, instead of proving that belief as true I was more interested with what happens after death (taking the belief as a fact). I always had this idea that after death, everything will be clear. We will discover secrets of people within our circle throught our live. Omniscience in a way, but incomparable to God’s omniscience. Knowing everything that just concerns our lives or the knowledge we are interested in are readily available to us. Now this idea gave birth to a lot of other thoughts, one of them is MOVIES IN HEAVEN.

So what are movies in heaven?

It’s like movies here on earth. There is a huge collection of memories or “recordings” of the lives of all the people still leaving on earth. Now, this recordings contain everything that happens in a person’s lives from his birth to his current everyday routine. Good thing about it is that you don’t have to worry about time, because you have eternal life (and time in heaven is faster than on earth is again another idea of mine) . But if it really bothers you, you can skip to important parts of that person’s life that change him or had an impact on his entire being. That way we can still learn and gain knowledge on how people can be changed by certain circumstances.

How about the recordings of those people who have died? On the last minute of your life, the moment you free your soul from you physical body and while you exhale your last breath that is the moment your “movie” will be returned to you. Your entire movie will play backwards and when your reach the moment of your birth, you die. You can lend your movie to anyone in heaven for them to see.

weird idea, but I sort of prefer this than having no idea of what will happen next at all.

BTW. In my idea of heaven, you will look like half the age of your death. (So if you died at the age of 60, you will like 30 years old).

P.S. People who were denied entry to Heaven, will have to work their way up from the circles of hell.