Jouska – n. a hypothetical conversation that you compulsively play out in your head—a crisp analysis, a cathartic dialogue, a devastating comeback—which serves as a kind of psychological batting cage where you can connect more deeply with people than in the small ball of everyday life, which is a frustratingly cautious game of change-up pitches, sacrifice bunts, and intentional walks.
You know I like you. If I was able to do that, I don’t have remain anonymous anymore. I can invite you to dinner, watch movies or a a date in general whenever I want to.
You once told everyone you don’t see yourself being in a relationship at the moment. That you want to focuse on your studies, career and yourself in general. I respect that so I had set my limits. I am continously swallowing the truth that the closest thing we can have between us is friendship….not even a deep one.
So please if you think I asked that question, reconsider my side. I lost the possible future with you, I don’t want to lose what I have with you at the moment, no matter how small or shallow that is.