[02/09/19]
Kase, kahit mag stick ako sa isang crush o magkacrush ako ng madami…. Sabihan ko man siya o silang lahat… Wala namang nangyayare.
The idea of commitment, fidelity or anything that has to do with two people loving each other remains a mystery to me. Things I stopped believing in to be honest.
I lost myself trying to understand love, driving me to the point of exhaustion and yet it remained elusive to me. What could have I done in my previous life to be living this life?
[01/30/19]
1.
How am I as a boyfriend? It’s not that I don’t know how to take care of my partner but I realized that he has a mind of his own..how he views me will always be entirely up to him.
2.
You know that part of the film where the vibrant scene slowly fades into a monotonous one….. That is what’s happening right now.
3.
I feel like Dorian Gray…. The one stuck in the canvass.
4.
Relationships are not just for beautiful people. I have seen a lot of beautiful people who are happily single.
5.
Is better to be with someone to accept you for who you are or someone who would always push to be better?
6.
Be at your worst and if they love you, they can love the rest or be at your best because no one deserves any less. Be at your worst, you’re pathetic. Be at your best, you’re intimidating.
7.
I’m not sure which one is scarier, romanticizing the idea of love so much that you see it with everyone or slowly giving it up that you fail to see it with anyone.
8.
May nahanap ka pero, ayaw sa’yo.
May dumating pero, ayaw mo.
Gusto ang isa’t isa, pero kailangan itago sa iba. Akala ng iba kayo, pero hindi talaga kayo talo.
9.
Mabilis makuha pero mabilis mawala.
Matagal hinintay pero pang habangbuhay.
Bakit parang ang hirap na piliin yung pangalawa?
10.
Bakit hindi ka mahal ng taong mahal mo?
Nasubukan mo na ba mahalin ang taong hindi mo talaga mahal? Hindi, kasi pointless. Mahirap na nga, nakasakit ka pa.
[01/11/19]
Do you ever feel like you’re surrounded by these amazing people with their quirks or things only they can do? And the only way you can measure up to them is to be beside them and support them because that’s what you do best… Being the best friend who seem to have no problems, a sturdy shoulder to lean on and a pillow to absorb all the pain and tears? To be naturally unconditional and selfless.
Will you be in constant fear that one day these people will no longer be around you, will be loved by another person, or will meet someone who can give/do what you cannot? Slowly they’ll fade out of your life simply because they have found you in another person.
Are you okay with that?
[01/4/19]
Don’t you just love the idea of someone holding your hand, pulling you towards him in the middle of the night. While everyone was sleeping, you were living your dream.
It’s 1am, 12 hours ago you’re nothing but a speck of dust in this bustling city but right now you exist and you’re not alone. Both of you can claim the city as yours and just be who you are.
It’s fascinating how two souls connect. It may happen instantly or mature over time.
[12/28/18]
“You create your own plot twist.”
That’s what I learned the last quarter of 2018.
In order for me to get what I want, I must do something about it. Before I act, I should have an idea of what am risking, weigh what I’m about to lose and what I could gain. I came to realize that the universe can only provide me with opportunities and it’s up to me if I have the guts to grab it.
[11/11/18]
For those who love someone and loved back
Make time for them, cherish them, love them
A million things could have possibly gone wrong
Yet, one possibility turned to reality, you together
[11/7/2018]
One day you will hold someone again
Give him that place no one has occupied
To kiss out of love and not of loneliness
A memory that will make you smile
And not shake your head
It’s Christmas Season once again
Hoping Christmas songs won’t feel sad anymore
I wish for arms around my neck instead of a scarf
I wish for hand clasping mine instead of gloves
I wish for someone instead of a jacket
What a problematic hopeless romantic you say
Forgive me for wishing a Christmas I never had
But this is my happiness, and everyone deserves to be happy during this yuletide season, even me
Through the Closet 